I am!
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Dear Diary,
Waking up looking like a whale and not being the only occupant in my body was off-putting. I knew right away that it was going to be a bad day. I was so very grumpy and sore all over. I'm fully aware, of course, that it's my fault that I was sore. What kind of pregnant woman works out so much? I mean, pregnancy comes with its own aches and pains, why add to it? I don't know. I guess I'm an idiot.
... a rebellious idiot.
Or maybe desperate. Or stir-crazy. I'm not sure, pick your own fitting adjective. It's like this, I had been off work for longer than I could remember. I was determined to do everything I could to speed through my promotions once I got off maternity leave if I ever got off maternity leave.
Cycl0n3 was kind enough to garden while I worked out. I think he knew that I wanted company. I mean, yes I was grumpy and I was hardly good company, but he didn't seem to mind so much. Isn't that sweet?
After a quick shower, I decided to take care of that toilet problem. It was slightly difficult to decide if I should blame Cycl0n3 for that one or not. I mean, he did break it twice in a short span of time, but was it him or was it the toilet? Maybe it was just getting old... or maybe my husband really doesn't know how to properly work the thing. I'm really not sure. I could probably ask him, but for all his merits I don't really think I could expect an honest answer from him. I mean, would you admit to a deficiency in your potty training?
Yeah, I didn't think so.
I know I haven't been talking about the gnomes as much as before. I've been a bit distracted by this baby thing. It was the baby thing that led me to do some laundry, though. We really need a nursery, or at least a crib for the baby. I mean, I think I'm due today, so we'll need something and fast. Let's hope the gnomes will take care of it for me.
And if they could add a new washer when they give us things for the baby, we'd be over the moon.
What's a woman to do when she's bored and too tired to work out? Hopscotch, of course! I can't believe that I had forgotten how much I enjoyed this game. It's so much fun. I really hope my baby will like it. Cycl0n3 and I haven't told anyone yet, but we're hoping for a boy. A little Cycl0n3 clone would be the best thing ever. If I get my way the little guy will be into sports and will love hopscotch. Just think of it- playing hopscotch as a family and having my husband and son in the audience at my games! That would be so perfect.
You might have been asking yourself where Cycl0n3 was while I was playing hopscotch. He got an opportunity to sing to sick hospital children. Apparently being married to me is enough to make someone famous enough for something like this, who knew? Actually it's a little flattering. I mean little kids at the hospital are getting all excited because they're meeting the soccer star formerly known as Lynn Winslow's husband. That's super cool.
After I beat myself at hopscotch, twice, I went inside to grab the laundry and was assaulted by the unexpected sight of peptobysmal and black and goldish wood. I guess the gnomes went a little overboard. Well, beggars couldn't be choosers right? I can't help but wonder if the gnomes are that creative, I mean, remember by last color scheme? They seem to like smattering the same color(s) onto everything and calling it good.
Apparently the outside got the same treatment as the inside. Well, pink was one of my favorite colors, so I guess I should just be happy with it... but does it have to be so pink?
I expressed my opinion about the house to Cycl0n3 at dinner. He didn't seem to mind it too much. It must be the sunglasses he always wears, right? It's not like he got a good view of anything. Well, I'm just about to have a baby, when would I get the chance to change anything in our house decoration? I guess I better just be happy. It's not soo bad, right?
After dinner it was back to the exercise machines. Actually I'm kind of enjoying our little routine that we have. Working out with my husband is really fun. That will probably all change once we have a baby, though. I mean, I can't guarantee that it will. I really don't know what to expect when the baby is born... this evening. Oh goodness, there has got to be something to else to do. Something that will take my mind off of our impending doom. Wait, doom? That's not what I meant... um... I mean.... you know... the arrival of our baby. ... yeah.
Heheheee. I guess he stayed out there too long.
He was so embarrassed he went straight to bed after that. Now, I know, I know, I should have reminded him that I was about to have a baby in the next few hours, but I just couldn't. I felt bad for him, poor guy. My poor incontinent guy. He deserved his sleep.
Just after 11 pm, I brought our son, Hector, into the world... alone.
Now should I have felt upset and angry that I just gave birth alone in my living room? Maybe. Did I feel like that? I might have. I can't really remember.
As soon as I was holding little Hector in my arms, I freaked out far too much to care about my delivery. I was responsible for him. He was mine. He was dependent on me. I had to take care of him. If I forgot about him, he would die. That's scary. How could anyone think it was a good idea for me to have a baby? What was I going to do with a baby? What if I screwed up?
I fumbled with the infant nervously and tried to snuggle him. Even I am surprised that I didn't drop him. I am so not ready to be a mother. I can't even say that I'm Lynn Sw0rd and I can do anything. I mean, I know that's my fall back, but I just can't say that. Not with Hector. This is too important and I'm just not ready.
I guess I can only hope that Cycl0n3 and I will figure it out along the way. Is that too much to hope for?
Now, let's not assume that I don't love my son. I do. I love him very much, how could I not? He was perfect. He was so adorable and so strong already. He cooed at me and pulled my hair. Anyone who saw him would love him, I'm sure of that. It's just that being a parent is terrifying. He'll be worth it, though. He has to be.
Is it too late to give him back?
Worried new mother,
Lynn Sw0rd
Whee! A boy! Are you randomizing all the names for the kids too? That would be kind of awesome.
ReplyDeleteHave you uploaded the family? I have been editing the houses in my neighborhood to make the bed arrangement make more sense. I mean, seriously, I downloaded all those houses because I suck at building, but so many people create these mansions that sleep two people :). The reason I ran out of space in my town is that the Hodgins had about 1 million simoleans, and there were six of them, and I dumped them in a house with only two beds. So everyone moved out one at a time and bought up all the big houses with lots of beds so that nobody else could have them. Heh.
At any rate, that's a long way of saying there's space for Lynn and Hector now!
Lol! I have not uploaded them yet (I forgot) but I'm about to load up the game and do that very thing. :) I'm glad you have room for them. Hopefully Lynn will be her.... odd self in your hood, too! :)
DeleteOh and yes all the kids get random names- takes the pressure off from having to name them! :)
Holy crap! It looks like the Sw0rd household was removed from the Exchange! I checked the rules, and it *might* be that uploading a stock character is not allowed, though it's not clear. It's also possible that it was a mistake, but I don't know.
DeleteHow peculiar, well I'm uploading her again.... with, them. lol, I'm uploading them again (can't forget about Hector!)....
Deleteand it looks like that completed. :) Hopefully they'll stay up this time.
Here's a link to her and Hector, and for whatever bizarre reason they're listed as the Winslow family, although they are both Sw0rd's...
Deletehttp://www.thesims3.com/assetDetail.html?assetId=6598342
Oh good grief, I'm so sloppy.
DeleteI had to delete them. Apparently I'm an idiot and including personal information in my sim description.
I'm sorry!
I'm gonna go into the game and edit that and try this all over again...
Sorry this isn't going so smoothly!
So they did tell you why your upload was being removed? That's good at least!
DeleteOkay, Hector and Lynn are updated and uploaded. :)
Delete... and no, actually, not that I know of, but i tend to just delete everything that the sims sends me, so I guess maybe they did.... hmm...
Well, anyways, hopefully they don't get removed again. :)
I downloaded the household with Lynn and Hector! I'll let you know if I have any trouble getting them into my game.
DeleteLynn and Hector are safely(?) in my game! I forgot that you had upgraded to 1.42 and I was being a coward, so this made me actually upgrade. Twallan's mods SEEM to be stable... And Woohooer is back out I see!
DeleteWooot! I'm sure Lynn and Hector will have a blast in your hood. :)
DeleteI saw Woohooer came out for it and I'm unsure about if I should get it or not- I'm trying to keep my game fairly unmodded- but it's sooo shiny! Lol, as silly as it is, the main reason I like that mod is because it has neat features AND it comes with the ability to make the 'my love' buff stick around.
Oh and sorry if I forced you to patch. :/ But the good news is that the new blueprint things are (imo) kind of cool. I'm still getting the hang of them, but I think I do like them.
Oh, I always patch my game, and the stuff in this patch looks really good. I just got freaked out watching Twallan making releases and then retracting them and posting to his status blog about various crash-to-desktop issues. I didn't want to damage my game while things were still in flux.
DeleteMost of what I use are Twallan's mods, but I do use the Ghost Reaction Remover because it really messes up your game to have two playable ghosts that the rest of the household constantly freaks out at (plus they freak out at each other). I still haven't seen a yes/no as to whether that needs an update. So I'm doing my own testing at the moment.
I didn't even think about the ghosts in your family! How is the Ghost Reaction Remover doing with the new patch?
DeleteI came here on Susan's recommendation and I love your story! Lynn's denial early on was very fun to read and I really like how you integrate all of the legacy requirements into the characters without it seeming forced. I can't wait to see how Lynn handles motherhood!
ReplyDeleteAww, I'm really glad you like it. :) I'm trying to keep things pretty relaxed without forcing it too much, but like with her marriage, there are some things that probably will end up being too forced. Oh well! I hope you keep reading, though. :D
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